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Day nine: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

-Well, yeah. People do, some not knowing it, but yeah. My mom tells me I’m getting fat sometimes, or stop eating, or my clothes are getting smaller. My so called ‘bestfriend’ who’s always been petite and small and thin with the leg gap and everything(its just her body type, she doesn’t starve or diet), but eats like a pig kind of does. I don’t really want to continue this. Bye.

Day eight: Your workout routine.

-This is probably my weakness. I’m extremely lazy. But I try.

• Taekwondo: 3-4 times a week, 1hr30mins - 2hrs a class. Tue/Wed/Thurs/Sat
• Weekly mile, for school. 9mins or below.
• 2 jumping jacks (1calorie) per page of books read. (since I’m addicted to reading, might as well make it work for me.)
• Might be trying this,

Day seven: Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?

-I don’t think mine know. My dad’s completely oblivious to what I do on a daily basis, but I think my mom’s catching on. She notices I take less food and snack less, but she doesn’t stop me. I think she’s fine with it, we both need to lose a few anyways. I’m fine with this, really. I wouldn’t want them always meddling and worrying and always checking up on me, telling me ‘tips’ or ‘what Dr. Oz says’. At the same time, I wouldn’t want them not giving a complete shit or discouraging me. So s’all good.

Day six: Do you binge? Why do you think you do so?

-I do binge, alot. That’s probably why I’m not losing much. I binge for a couple reasons, and I’m trying to stop.

• I get bored, so I eat for no reason.
• I eat when I get upset
• I keep eating on those binge days because I feel that I’ve already failed
• Food makes me feel better
• I eat when I’m on the computer, watching tv, etc.
• food tastesgood

That’s why I’m fat, people.

Day five: Why are you really trying to lose weight? Are you doing it for you?

-I’m losing weight (or trying) for a couple reasons.

• I won’t be overweight anymore
• I can wear shorts, skirts, &bikinis again
• have good self image
• won’t hate myself for eating a cookie
• can fit into my jeans from last year
• feel pretty
• to lower my risk of diabetes
• maybe gain some friends or popularity

I am doing it for myself, and my own good. I’ve been extremely self conscious about how I look and feel for a long time. I’d like to stop hating myself for every little thing and start liking who I am. I might even become a role model. Maybe my mom will lose weight if she sees I can. Maybe I might be even called pretty.

• Day four: What areyour biggest fears about weight loss.

-I have a few. That:

• I won’t accomplish what I wanted to lose the weight for
• everyone will judge me (ex. bad image, fake, wannabee, tryhard.)
• developing an eating disorder
• everyone worrying about my state
• people judging me based on only my looks, not my personality

Yep.